Can Sex Be Sexy When Going Through Infertility

Posted on May 7, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

Infertility can leave your sex life anything but sexy. If baby making has led to a lack of sexiness in your love life, don’t get discouraged, sexy can come back!

Can Sex Be Sexy When Going Through Infertility - Lori Kerrigan



My name is Lori, and I am infertile

Posted on April 27, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

Depression caused by infertility can leave an individual feeling helpless, overwhelmed and cheated. Here is how one person not only survived depression triggered by infertility, but lives a greater life because of it.

Surviving Depression Caused By Infertility



Ready, Set….IVF

Posted on April 6, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

So, I just got back from spending 2 weeks in California with my nieces, nephews and sisters.  It was so nice to step away from everything at home that reminds me of the journey I am on, and the future that lies ahead.  I also got a taste of what it is like to be a full-time parent to two sick toddlers, and though I would not give up the week of bonding with my little love bugs,  it wiped me out including all emotions about infertility…..for a bit………

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Infertility - The Low Cost Way

Posted on March 19, 2008 and filed under Infertility Resources, Infertility....the unfathomable journey

Counting every penny to keep up with infertility bills?  Here are tricks and tips they don’t want you to know about that can drastically cut your expenses.

 Infertility…..The Low Cost Way - Lori Kerrigan

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Are My Thoughts Making Me Infertile?

Posted on March 16, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

I just got back from spending a week with my girls and my little niece - Jo Jo Bean in Oregon.  If you have not been to Oregon, I recommend it.  They live in a little town called Astoria.  Many of you are probably familiar with it, if you have seen Goonies or Kindergarten Cop, both movies, and many more were filmed in this lush town sitting at the base of the Colombia River.  What an amazing time I had.  Endless days with little Josephine - she will be 2 this month, long girly talks with lots of giggling (not laughing, but out of control, laugh for no reason giggling),  walks along the river with beautiful scenery and reflective talks, a little bit of shopping, lots of junk food, and most appreciatively time to reflect and plan.  Thinking has been something that has gotten me into trouble since the “fertility challenged” thing has entered our lives. My thoughts can go around and around, and deeper and deeper into darkness and confusion, the more I think, the more bleak I get, the more confused I get and the more “nuts” I conclude I am. So, this week of not thinking, but doing, was amazing.  And when I was not doing, I was in a much more relaxed, non-infertility state of mind, that I was able to reflect, and dream (yes, I know that sounds cheesy- but it is such a beautiful thing, especially after a period of time of being afraid to dream).  And at one point in this reflective, relaxing week, I opened up a magazine, one that my friends and I refer to as smut mags - full of celebrity photos, and I saw a picture of Marcia Cross with her two beautiful twins.  As that picture popped into my view, and lightness filled my heart, and it was followed by the joy that comes with hope, it reminded me that it is possible, one day I can be a mom, which  brings me to a question though. 

Are my negative thoughts keeping me from getting pregnant?

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Round and Round and Round I go….Where I stop…..

Posted on March 11, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

Round and round and round I go, where I stop, no body knows……that’s how life feels lately. Not in a bad way though, actually quite the contrary…life actually finally feels…good. Do I dare say it. I don’t know when life felt good last and I would be devasated to jinx it. Well actually that’s not true, I remember quite clearly when the last time was that I felt good.

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Trying to relax…another part of the journey

Posted on February 26, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

So Michael and I went to the Dr.’s yesterday, to start our IVF “orientation”.   We got a lot of questions answered, but surprisingly, after an hour of talking with the nurse, did not make it to our “IVF Orientation” notebook, which was 5 inches thick and the whole purpose of the appointment…… so we have to make another appointment for that soon.   In the meantime we have to go get some blood work done, and then a hyperoscopy (that is totally spelled wrong and probably not even close to what the procedure is called), no more caffeine..again..I need to just quit for good and stop indulging in it once the procedures are over and stop putting  myself through this caffeine withdrawal craziness!), and then we start the IVF  pre-cycle stuff in April, and the IVF in May, wow!  It’s amazing how timing works out when God is in control (this word control is foreshadowing to the rest of my blog, its amazing, and I know I mentioned this before, how some things  I have no problem giving God control of, and others, just freak me out). 

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We’re In…let the IVF begin…

Posted on February 24, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

We’re in! We made it into the study. Wow, we are really moving forward with IVF. Its crazy to even try to imagine what we are about to encounter. I am excited for the prospect, grateful (it always stings a bit when I say grateful for anything in this whole process, but there are times I am genuinely grateful, I like life so much more in those moments, and right now is one of those moments) for the opportunity, but also realistic about that fact that it may not work, and it will be a very involved journey.  But, if it does not work, we know that we are meant to adopt, right? We will give it enough tries to utilize all the eggs created this first round and if it does not work, we will start saving for adoption.  Which by the way, are you aware that the federal government gives everyone (depending on income and a few other things, but pretty much everyone meets it) a over $11,000 tax credit.

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What to do???

Posted on February 21, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

So today my husband and I went to see the doctor.  We have been doing the IUI process for what seems like forever now.  (Clomid - it is the devil for me. I don’t even like being around me when I am on it, I can’t imagine how my poor husband and closest loved ones feel).  With the intent of moving forward in our journey, moving away from Clomid (though, yes, I would sadly be on it for years, well maybe not years…..but a long time, if it meant conception would finally occur), and figuring out our financial options, we made our way to the big beautiful building, that symbolizes so little beauty to us, but still a bit of hope.

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Infertility, Infertility, Infertility……

Posted on February 20, 2008 and filed under Infertility....the unfathomable journey

Infertility, infertility, infertility. Maybe if I say it enough it will stop having the stinging effect that it has had since it entered my life.  It’s not just its direct meaning that is so ugly, it’s everything that it touches. Like a demon that infests everything it is near with venom, infertility seems to impact every aspect of life, even the positive parts. I know this very well, my husband and I are infertile.  We hit the official mark right around one year of trying. You know, the appointment that “they” make you wait for.  Like the roller coast ride of trying to get pregnant, starting your period, crying and walking around like a zombie until you manage to  talk yourself through it, and then trying  again, just to do the whole thing over 11 more times, before you can officially be tested for issues, is not enough.  Then you finally “get” to be tested, fork out a few bills, and a few more if you don’t have insurance, and be poked and prodded like a lab rat.  First comes the guy appointment, to rule him out, and then the
woman. 

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